Four years ago from today was my last day at Magic Springs amusement park. After seven years of working my way up, learning useful skills, and making magical memories with people who felt like family I was finally brave enough to leave a job that felt like a home in order to pursue something much more risky… Art!
It was intimidating because in those seven years I felt that I had found something I was good at, where I was important, and there was a sense of security in it. I had only been doing henna for a few months, but the opportunity opened up to do henna daily downtown at a shop called Plenty Mystic.
This opportunity would mean transitioning from a guaranteed hourly rate at a job I was good at to offering my henna art services daily with no guarantee that anyone would want it in a small Arkansas town. The risk was huge and leaving was painful, but part of me knew I had to fight for myself and believe that I could succeed in this blind territory the same way I had in more comfortable ones.
When I began doing henna, I had space to do my art and nothing else. I had to learn through trial and error discovering how to make “the book,” how to explain the henna process to others, how to mix my paste, roll my cones, sign up for festivals, and plenty more that could be listed forever. The point is that there was plenty of uncharted territory, but I believed that if it was meant to be I would solve the problems thrown my way. I also embraced all of the lessons and skills I acquired from places like Magic Springs to help me face problems with confidence.
I’m entirely grateful for the risk I took because my life has changed for the better. Because of taking the risk and pursuing henna, I have been presented with new opportunities and risks. Like my first gallery show with Prohibition Press… I was once told “canvas art doesn’t sell.” When Prohibition Press invited me to have a show, they asked if I could put some of my mandalas into paintings. This is when I finally took the risk of investing so much energy into paintings and now I have paintings across America and in Germany. I now have murals in my town and others because of these risks.
I have new doors opening everyday, sometimes I succeed and sometimes I fail. I embrace both because either way I learn. I’m still not perfect in my business, I never will be, but instead of beating myself up in my weaknesses I try to forgive myself and give love, patience, and a little extra work in turning those weaknesses into strengths.
I treasure the past four years. I have cried from overwhelming joy and from raging anxiety. I have accepted help when needed, and offered it when I’m able. I never know how long this will be maintained, or how big it could become. For right now I appreciate my home at Metaphysical Connection being the “henna girl,” and “mandala girl.” I’m grateful to have a gallery where I can see people enjoy my mandalas on a daily basis. I’m grateful for the mentors and friends the feel like family that are now in my life because I pursued this path.
I’m grateful that four years ago I took this risk, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.